school

I havent wrote in a little bit so decided too!! i started school monday and im not going to lie im nervous and stressed!!! i have so much homework and i dont think im going to pass my radiology 2 class cause the teacher tells me how behind i am! and im horrible at math so my pharmocology is going to be crazy hard! i keep asking myself! why am i even going to college im too stupid to even understand any of it! what if im in a medical assisting job and i dont even know what to do! what if i cant find a job! what if all this time away from my kids is a waste! i have always loved helping people and thats what i want to be able to do! but if i cant pass these class or even understand the material what am i suppose to do!! im so stress i have no patience for landon and he needs someone to have lots of patience with him, when i yell at him i feel bad! blah! i need this school work to be over so i can have a better life my kids and family!! my husband is so great and supportive i dont know what i would do without him! he knows how stressed i am but tries to not get mad when  i take it out on him! but when i see the smiles on my kids faces it takes all the stress away for a min! i love it!! i love them!! landon finished swimming lessons! now he gets to go to tots 2!! so excited! we leave for cali on monday!! im so excited!! ok back to home work!!! and i died my hair mostly blonde!!