today is the day!

 our stud

 swimming lessons

 i love watching her all the time!

 happy baby

on monday i went and did smart lipo where this machine breaks down your fat! i really want my love handles gone so we did it since it was only 140 dollars for two treatments but once we got there they tell us to completly get it off we need to do it at least 9 times!!! wow crazy so i guess im stuck with these love handles forever!! today is a good day! i love waking up to my kids and husband nothing is the world is better! mylie still sleeps in her bouncer and everytime she wakes up to eat i look down and she gets really excited and starts kicking her feet but she only gives you a couple mins to make her bottle she will keep grabing her shirt over and over with her mouth open! so ready for the bottle! once landon gets up he is so ready for ceral and wants it within 15 mins of waking up!can i just say i have the weirdest cat ever she loves to chew on plastic bags lol ill show a picture! landon has swimming lessons again and he is doing so great im proud of him! my poor husband he has worked on a friends car for the past 3 days and he looked so tired but he still hung my pictures ill take a picture when there all done! i love them

weekend....

The weekend was fun! we went to the jazz game and then party at a friends! i had to leave my kids all day saturday i hate that but i know they are in good hands! im just scared im going to miss something and i dont want to miss anything! we go to cali in a couple weeks and im kinda nervous but excited! were driving up there with a 4 month old and a 4 year old! fun car ride!! we tried banans on myllie today and she still didnt like it!lol i cant wait till she will eat it then we dont have to use so much formula! landon is doing really good in swminng lessons! i love watching him! he is so smart and he catches on so fast! tomorrow were doing this smart lipo! we will see how it goes!!! oh but about the jazz!! they lost!! ahhh  but i loved hanging out with my husband we dont get to do that very often and he is my best friend! i love it! he is so amazing he went into victoria secret to buy my friends underware since i totally for it was there birthday! who man would do that for them??? geez dont know what i would do without him sometimes!

blogs....what ifs??

I keep thinking to myself what if something happens to my kids, i keep reading these blogs that there babies have died! and i hurt everytime i read them and there not even my kids its hard to just read them! what if i was in there position i dont think i could be that strong! they are amazizng women! It makes you think that anything can happen at any time and to not take anything for granted! i take a picture of my kids everyday, i havent been sleeping cause im so scared something is going to happen! i know these blogs made me realize something but also made me a lot more aware and scared of what could happen! My husband just tells me to stop reading them but i cant, i want to know how there doing and hoping that they will be happy again! But really wished i could just bring there babies back to them!

well on a good note we started mylie on rice ceral the first time she hated it which was two days ago so i tried this morning and she actually like it! maybe this will save on formula! and yesterday made my first bow for mylie! im so proud because im not a crafty kinda person but has always wanted to be! My husband said he liked it but not sure if really he did but landon told me it was beatiuful and i should make more! lol he always knows what to say to make me feel good! today in swiming lessons the teacher said he was learning really quickly and its his only second day going! i cant wait to see more! he is so smart and thats why sometime it gets him in too much trouble! i only have 16lbs to lose yay i have lost 50 pounds in 4 months! im starting to feel better about myself!

im feeling pretty lucky

Me and my husband were in the car when we heard this song about driving to heaven and we were thinking how lucky we are, we havent had to lose anyone where really close too! i lost my grandma to alchol and i barley saw her cause she lived in idaho but i use to be really close to her! i wish everyday i would of spent mmore time with her cause now she is gone! but thats the only person really i know that has died! i dont want anyone to die that is close to me i wished we can stay together forever! we can take life for granted! im so gratelful for everything i have! I have alcholism in my family im really scared to get it! my dad is one and i wish everyday he will stop i know my mom complains about him but dont think she would know what to do withhout him! i wouldnt know either althought im not that close! but i really dont want to tell my kids that my dad died from something like that and he is still young!  i hope he wil realize and stop!! went to hobby lobby today! they had some fun stuff im gonna start scrapbookking and try to make baby mylie some bows! she is almost rolling over! she loves her feet! she grabs her feet and trys to roll over! i love it! we tried ceral on her an she hates it! we will try again soon! landon started swimming lessons today!! i hope he does really well!!

work sucks...

I wished there was a way to only work part time! i hate to miss my kids growing up! i start school too soon it just sucks because they grow up so fast but you have to do what you gotta do to survive! one day ill be where i can just work part time! but we will see! i have 6 months of school left of medical asst. i just hope i can get a job right off the backbut who knows these days! I rarley see my husband i cant wait till the day we can spend more time together! we have oppoiste schedules so we dont have to deal with day care but sometime i think that it puts a toll on our relationship. But still im loving life and wouldnt change a thing! were partying tonight so that should be fun!!

my kids...

cant believe my baby girl is 4 months and my boy is 4 years old
mylie  is 15lbs and 7oz and 24 and half inc long thats huge since she was born 6'15 and 17inc long she 80 percentile on height and weight! chunky girl!
mylie you eat 4 oz every 2 1/2 hour and you make sure its right on the dot! you love to eat and you always have your fits and fingers in your mouth! your starting to grab your toes and you still hate to get dressed althought mommy loves dressing you! if you had it your way you would be naked all the time and you make sure you kick off your socks you hate socks!! i just painted your toes orange they look so cute!! you still puke and drool  everywhere!  we got your ears pierced jan 30th and now we can finally change them out!! you look just like your daddy and you love daddy! and you for sure love tv your brother never liked tv!your finally playing with your toys i cant believe your getting so big and oh ya! you love tubs you have to have your morning tub every morning!!you got shots yesterday and you are doing great! compared to your 2month ones you were really fussy! and you love blankets right next to your face!and your trying to eat all our fingers!

landon! now i cant believe how big you are! you were such a mamas boy and now you have grown into a big boy! i wished i would of wrote down everything you did when you were a baby like im doing for mylie, i know you crawled at 9 months and you walked at 11months and 1 week! you were a colicky baby but after 4 months you were sleeping throught the night and a very energetic baby that needed full attention and something different to do all the time! you have never been scared of anything your very daring! you always loved to eat! when you were born you weight 7lbs 20z and 20 and half inc long you were 4 days early! mom took castor oil and it induced the labor but with mylie it didnt work i got induce 4 days early! you always loved baths also you are such a water baby! i cant believe you have grown so much! right now your in preschool and you love it! you love making friends! and you love your sports! your dad is your best friend you love when he plays with you! yesterday you got your last set of shots for a long long time and dad had to hold you down! poor guy! but your doing good today with 4 shots in you! mama loves you!!

My kids mean the world to me and i never want to forget a moment i wished i would of realized this when landon was a baby i would of took more pictures and wrote down a lot more stuff!!  this is his cousin kyle in this picture there having a sleep over

first time....

This is my first time ever writing a blog and i was inspired by a lady that just lost her baby girl it made me think that i want to remember things and have things i can look back on and somewhere i can write what im feeling. Her story has touched me so much i never want to let my kids go! im sure you guys have read about it (kandjstaats) i feel so bad for her i wished i could help, i have done the auction to raise some money and one the leggings im glad i can help somehow because if i lost either of my kids i would love all the support and help she is getting! I wished i could bring maddie back to her though but i guess god has his reasons and everything happens for a reason! today i have to take my little girl mylie to get her shots and my son needs his kindergarden one but we can wait till next year! well this is kinda fun having somewhere i can write!! i love my kids and my husband!!

first time!