blogs....what ifs??

I keep thinking to myself what if something happens to my kids, i keep reading these blogs that there babies have died! and i hurt everytime i read them and there not even my kids its hard to just read them! what if i was in there position i dont think i could be that strong! they are amazizng women! It makes you think that anything can happen at any time and to not take anything for granted! i take a picture of my kids everyday, i havent been sleeping cause im so scared something is going to happen! i know these blogs made me realize something but also made me a lot more aware and scared of what could happen! My husband just tells me to stop reading them but i cant, i want to know how there doing and hoping that they will be happy again! But really wished i could just bring there babies back to them!

well on a good note we started mylie on rice ceral the first time she hated it which was two days ago so i tried this morning and she actually like it! maybe this will save on formula! and yesterday made my first bow for mylie! im so proud because im not a crafty kinda person but has always wanted to be! My husband said he liked it but not sure if really he did but landon told me it was beatiuful and i should make more! lol he always knows what to say to make me feel good! today in swiming lessons the teacher said he was learning really quickly and its his only second day going! i cant wait to see more! he is so smart and thats why sometime it gets him in too much trouble! i only have 16lbs to lose yay i have lost 50 pounds in 4 months! im starting to feel better about myself!